...i...cant...bear...to...see...you.....leave.........

im so worried.really.

..some ppl wan it all..but i don't..want nothin at all..
..if it ain't you baby...if i ain't got you baby..
..some ppl wan diamond rings..some jus wan everything..
..but everythin means nothin..if i ain't got you...

....agonising.
the days before e actual one is a cruel wait...

but i noe he feels even worse...i would though if i were him.
i wouldn bear to leave so much behind...

你總是這樣說我　像一顆不容易溶化的糖果
帶我見你的朋友　又很得意地埋怨我沉默

你追問我的行蹤　你在乎我的舉動
哄得我淚眼迷濛　做些事情讓我被感動

望著你　突然一陣心痛
一次又一次任那感情放縱
你的脆弱　讓我走不開
你的依賴　所以我存在

想著你　還是想到心痛
期待我做的將來你都會懂
有一天　真如果有一天
但願我還在你記憶中


as i was listenin to it laz nite..a wave of sadness came over me.i've been wonderin for the past few weeks, why haven't i felt anythin..why haven't i felt what i should actually feel..
then it hit me.squarely in e face...
im gonna miss you..so very very very much.......................
sigh.

im blastin kit chan's xing tong right now...

i..cant..help...but...feel............

reality's kickin in.
sigh.

i've been on many eating sprees these days it's driving me nuts.
not that im complainin but...my throat's killin me right now.
i cant even recall everything i've eaten but chomp chomp was excellent shit.
stingray,satay,sugarcane,fried oyster,hokkien mee.orgasmic.
shit i'm using that word waaaayyyy too often.everything seems orgasmic these days but thats not the damn point.

snowy went to e vet on tuesday and as usual,dr christopher tham was lookin........hot as usual.ivan im sorry but yes.vets are cool.snowy was calmed down in an instant in his arms.im very grateful for that.
but i went home with a whole bunch of medicine.5 bottles.different coloured bottles.antibiotics even.

had choc buffet at fullerton with ivan yesterday. the iced water saved us in all honesty. oh yes the tea and coffee too. it was very good but......sadly,i'm stayin off chocolates for one month.im dead serious.

suddenly im speechless.lol. was quite mad today during training,thus resulting in me taking a nap at the courts.zzz.
there's many things i wanna say,but i can't seem to find the right words...

i think of you,and i smile. =)

..i'm looking out the window..
..where we sat to watch the stars..
..there's a chill within the air..
..it makes my heart long for your touch..
..you may be miles away..
..but as i kneel to pray..

..i see the same side of the moon..
..that we'll be looking on when the world turns blue..
..and know that time and space can't come between me and you..
..we share the same side of the moon..
..and though you'll never see all my tears shine through..
..i know i can't be that far from you..
..if we're both looking on the same side of the moon...

..i picture you across the oceans..
..in your corner of the world..
..i pray the wind will blow my voice..
..and gently whisper in your ear..
..your night may be my day..
..and though the seasons change..

..it's still the same side of the moon..
..that we'll be looking on when the world turns blue..
..and know that time and space can't come between me and you..
..we share the same side of the moon..
..and though you'll never see all my tears shine through..
..i know i can't be that far from you..
..if we're both looking on the same side of the moon..
..i know i can't be that far from you..
..if we're both looking on the same side of the moon..

i loike.
k oh wells.sorry out of point.

my dearest yingxuan: i really hope you get well soon and yes,u'll always have a place in my heart. i love you girl.

and to all e rumourmongers out there askin me the golden question.
yes.

hmmmmm. im elated. =)

wah sch's so hectic cos it's the last few days already. common tests and exams are round the corner.
went back on tues and wed to visit my teachers. so much has changed mans.
so many new tchers,new building,new colours,my goodness i almost got lost just tryin to find the staff room.
i miss anderson so much.i really do. the times i had there can never be replaced.ever.
met up with james fahmy and siming on wed.chatted a while with teachers and esp mrs lim.she still looks the same mans.i relish every moment in anderson,even when i go back. sigh.

hmmm.went with ivan for dinner at wheelock's n.y.d.c and then to his college bash on friday nite at dbl-o.it was good! the bands were exceptionally in a very high mood mans. the guitarists,drummers,woo! music was quite gd!
dance floor was opened and then dance music started playing. pretty weird at first,but got used to it soon after.they switched to r&b after a while.it was a very good night all in all,good company and good music. thank you! ooh and we spotted so many hunks and babes there mans!!! woo.
went to 7-11 to get a drink cos we were absolutely dying at around 3.think my legs were havin trouble holdin up mans. but it was good! =)

ahhh.caught a bit of sleep then headed to jurong east to meet ky for lunch at edo sushi again.zzzzz.food's good larh so no comments.headed for training in sku at 3 and then headed to town with my sis for dinnerrrr.woo.crystal jade.heh.

wah i cant blog much cos im tired and happy.haha.jus got back frm town with him. it was rainin cats and dogs when i headed out frm home.had marche's for lunch.their soft shell crabs and sweet crepes are really....orgasmic.
really.too bad i wasn all that hungry.walked around lookin for a present but was pretty unsuccessful.ended up getting dan brown's digital fortress instead. ahaha.
and he surprised me.i love the cds.and thank you so very much..really. =)

thank god i found you.

im freakin shit ass tired now.trainin jus now. felt so..lethargic the whole day.
will update tml. =)